Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Mrf. Rebekah just called, she doesn't think we should see each other anymore. Sad news. Not devistating. I'm not going to be flipping out or crawling back into a shell, but this definitely ranks under 'downer'.
Once again, I hate being single. I belive it was 'the internet' that said: "The only consistant factor in all of your unfulfilling relationships is you." I broke the 1-month mark, but not by much, really. Especially when you consider I hadn't seen her for the past two weeks.
I played the drums along with Chevelle at absurdly high volumes to make myself feel better. And played video games. Gonna hang out with Tabi tomorrow.
What strikes me as odd is that all of the memories I have with Rebekah when we were doing neat relationship-y stuff have gone suddenly and instantly sour. A few hours ago I liked reflecting on that sort of stuff, but now it just makes me cringe. All this great stuff that lead up to nowhere.
Yes, I do think I can use my 'still friends with exes' superpower. We're both good people, it just didn't match. I suppose I'm mostly just upset about yet another failure.
Grrrrr. I'm going to have a pleasant sleep tonight...
-N
Once again, I hate being single. I belive it was 'the internet' that said: "The only consistant factor in all of your unfulfilling relationships is you." I broke the 1-month mark, but not by much, really. Especially when you consider I hadn't seen her for the past two weeks.
I played the drums along with Chevelle at absurdly high volumes to make myself feel better. And played video games. Gonna hang out with Tabi tomorrow.
What strikes me as odd is that all of the memories I have with Rebekah when we were doing neat relationship-y stuff have gone suddenly and instantly sour. A few hours ago I liked reflecting on that sort of stuff, but now it just makes me cringe. All this great stuff that lead up to nowhere.
Yes, I do think I can use my 'still friends with exes' superpower. We're both good people, it just didn't match. I suppose I'm mostly just upset about yet another failure.
Grrrrr. I'm going to have a pleasant sleep tonight...
-N
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